yknow, i’ve always had this idea that happiness is a genuine emotion, while sadness is but just a thought. Sadness stems from the loss of happy times, remembering fond memories, imagining the ‘what-could-have-beens’ - and it isnt a real emotion.
but happiness? boy oh boy - happiness is when you first see the girl of your dreams, when her eyes glow and sparkle as it connects with yours, when you realize that this is in fact a real living human being, and not just a made up fantasy of a gem that dropped from the heavens. happiness is when she helps you wipe off all the residual fur from your arms and neck, happiness is when she struggles to stay up even though her eyes are already closed, as her eyelids paddle and row whenever you continue to speak over the phone.
Happiness is knowing that even though you may not feel like you are good enough, she still wants to be with you, is willing to stand by you, and gives you the supportive strength to shift your mindset and sail towards the destination of wanting to be good enough for her no matter what.
how our stars are aligned with the 5 languages and briggs, if love & happiness had a type she’d be the perfect fit.
Happiness is the anchor that she has left firmly in your heart, keeping you at bay yet ready at any moment to embark on the journeys of life together.
Happiness is being a copywriter and a small-time grammar nazi, being aware of her usage of 'ur’ for you’re, yet not caring at all because she’s still sheer perfection.
1 and 3 wee quarters you called me over
drained and jaded but I still answered
“okay i’ll fly right there” even though we
were on the precipe of the airstrip
& i had to my golden to look after
all just to help you murder a roach
and in the midst of it all i even got scolded
clueless why i still do clueless how i still do
Put on your life vest only if told to do so
Well I’m telling you now
Strap it across your chest
Prepare yourself for impending death
You and me are nose-diving
At the speed of whiplash, life passes by
In an endless plane crash
Muffled I love you through an oxygen mask
On my face, brace, brace
And the cabin erupts with religious conversions
God’s sick joke as we lose the engines
Some people scream and some people are gracious
i pray to reach the bleeding blue void
where sadness is forever done & gone
to become a caged up android
to bury the broken emotional bones
When they want a chance, and the effort is made, the attempt is taken, no regrets mentioned, tries shall be given..
When they say it’s over, no matter how you’re bent and broken, begging to be forgiven, your love will be forsaken, to them it’s ‘never return’ - well I thought you were different..
I took the plunge, you broke the fall,
How did you know we couldn’t have it all?
it was like being in heaven
but having the ground split open
and the sudden descension
when you realize the lack of emotion
from the other end
even through all the passion
one day
if you begin noticing my wrongs
see all my quirks as technical flaws
the things i do become predictable
something happened 4 moonlights ago
when you stopped saying “i miss you so”
stopped questioning if everything is ok
stopped asking if i am moody
i will understand, I will laern to accept
that i have stopped being your priority
it was the happiest and best days
being truly cared for,
being the one that always mattered
even up till the passing of days
no matter how short this entire
journey was
i am pleased to have made
your acquaintance
and more than honoured
to have given you my heart
even if i am not the final destination
maybe this is for the best
to give the heart away
so that it remains
intact and always safe
with the person that i love
before it turns to hate
was not a day to be arguing
was not a day for us to say
“we never wanted things this way”
but we gave our best and in
the end we made things work
and we decided to be together
this was a first that wasn’t a soft landing
always simply a means to an end
it’s tough to think i’m deserving of your time
never gave a chance to believing
without ever knowing how much this meant
is it a mistake if our bodies lie
Dont save the flowers for the funeral
Have faith in the candle you hold
We come into this world alone. And we leave this world alone. Ultimately i just want to make the people around me happy. If possible i would like to increase that circle. But i cant always reach the people i love, for they may be too distant. Some have chosen to draw a circle big enough for themselves alone. That shouldn’t be the way.
Born in a wrong era where dating is a game that has to be played for the chase and the mind games, the attraction and attention.
Naive and old-fashion
Loving from afar is not meant to be difficult, yet it isn’t the most gratifying - because it’s meant to be gratuitous, without expectations, desires, demands, but you still cherish in your heart what once was.
it has taken a whole depth of strength to brave through the shambles from friends and acquaintances alike